Friday, October 3, 2008

I turned 40 last week

If we hadn't of moved I would have thrown a big party. Maybe then I would have gotten a birthday cake.

The boys did very well. They made me eggs benedict for breakfast. It was delicious. Probably one of the best presents ever for a woman in my stage of life was given to me. Can you guess??

No gemstone involved. No fur. No masseur.

I received a keypad locking doorknob for my bedroom. You know one of those ones that your type in the code and it opens.

No more red nailpolish incidents at our house.

Well, what did I do on my birthday? I went on a field trip with the family and picked pears. It was a good day.

I have been in a bit of a funk lately. I am not sure why. I am NOT upset to be forty and it truly doesn't bother me because I would much rather be 40 than 20. I know I have many, many productive years ahead of me. I have finally realized that this is it. Those little kids are growing up and it will pass my by if I don't take time to twirl with the girls or jump on the trampoline with them. (but if I do that anymore I need a better bra-steel plated so I don't knock myself senseless) I found myself really wondering if what I have done has even made a difference in the world. Have I mattered? And raising kids somedays you really wonder. The continual selflessness and sleep deprivation and whining that surrounds me gets to me somedays. I really do wish sometimes that someone would just bake the cake I want and make sure that the dinner includes avocado and bleu cheese. I wonder if it will be worth it or will I be lost in the constant giving?

5 comments:

Hilary said...

**Happy Birthday**!!! While I completely understand your feelings, I want you to know that you have absolutely done so much good and been an amazing influence on many, many lives. . . I'm better for knowing you. Enjoy this new year!

Jen B. said...

Happy B-day Dana!!!! I cannot believe that I am closer to 40 than 30 -- guess it is time to go through a little midlife crisis. BTW -- you ROCK! I have never met a woman do as much as you and still look good and laugh as hard as you can laugh. It is so tough to be a mom -- sometimes I just want to cry. But, the fabulous women's conference gave me hope -- it is okay to take time out for yourself and it is necessary that we find joy in what makes us happy. Next b-day I would love to make sure that you had all your favorite yummies!! BTW, can you send me your new address (you can email it to me jenbrimhall@gmail.com). Thanks, Jen

NatalieHemingway said...

I HAVE GOT TO GET ONE OF THOSE KEYPAD LOCKS!!! BTW - Happy Birthday. You're Awesome!

The Amayesings said...

Ditto to all the comments preceding (and probably following) mine!!! Happy Birthday, you fabulous difference-maker! Love ya!

Stacie and Family said...

You do more good for your family and all those around you than you can possibly know! You are a truly amazing woman Tulip Girl!! Your example in the gospel and in parenting has influenced our family tremendously for the better. Thank you for being you!! How many mother's of 6 do you know who would go out of their way to drive a fantastic dinner to a friend who just had a baby the same week she is packing to move? I only know one -- one very special friend.